Well ….it has been a while since I’ve posted anything on this website. I started this space and called it “My Heart Project” on my birthday in 2019. It was where I went to write to heal and grow from some things in life that were both expected and some… not so much. It was both a beautiful distraction when I could share stories of some pretty amazing women and it was my own type of personal therapy to write down my thoughts to get them out of my own head. I’ve learned that the vulnerability to put thoughts and feelings out there into words can be the slayer of those fire breathing dragons of the brain that want to turn you into ash. At times I wondered why I stopped writing all these stories, guessing that life sometimes gets busy, and we stop doing some of the things we love to do in order to keep up with it all.
So, this month was my turn to select a book for my book club. (Let me take a moment to mention the best book club...EVER! We all met when our kids were in grade school and the year that they graduated from high school we decided to start this book club because we would all miss one another. Every month I get to sit down with this group of crazy fascinating women to talk about books which always circles back to discussions that incorporate into our own lives. It is definitely one of the highlights to every month…anyway…) This month I selected the book The Midnight Library. The story is very mind provoking because it is based on the character’s lifetime of choices and regrets, which are all placed in one book called The Book of Regrets. It makes you look at how one decision in your life can change the outcome of where you are today. If you stop and think about it, there are some regrets that you can never change but there are those that you can change at any time in your life story. My lack of writing, especially here, is one of those things that I feel needs to be changed so I don’t look back on it wishing I had worked on it more.
This past year in my photography business I met some pretty incredible women. After those photo shoots, I would drive home thinking…Wow! She would have made a great story in Turquoise Women. If this space wasn’t still a part of me, I wouldn’t have thought twice about wanting to share that story. After reading this book, I decided to start digging deep back into this little heart project that I have loved so much and that has made me take notice to how inspiring so many women’s stories are to share. I can feel that excitement that I did back when I first started this project in 2019.
My life is in a very happy place today. I look at the comparison of then and now and realize I needed that space from writing in order to get here. It’s a positive nod to the universe that I can now sit back and welcome some regrets as challenges for the future to change. I don’t want to look back and know that I allowed Turquoise Women to disappear when it is still obviously very much a part of me. So here it is, back from the quiet and dark depths to a much sun shinier place, because if you could take some of those regrets and change them in a better way…why wouldn’t you? xo
